gahh i`m sick AGAIN. T_T it kinda sucks to keep falling sick every few weeks. i don noe why, but since this year started, i`ve been falling sick non stop. =X i never used to fall sick often, much less see the doctor 6 times in 2 months. T_T T_T T_T been on so much medication, i think maybe it`s the meds thats causing my body to be weaker than ever. =/

anyhoos, i hope yall had a great cny. cny was alright for me this year, tho it kinda didnt feel like it. i guess tats how it is when u`re growing old. =/ i thought my cny`s gonna be rather screwed cos of world war 3, but God has been good. :) the war has ended (i hope) and things look better in the household. no more screaming and slamming things. my dad`s in a happier mood too, prob cos it`s cny too. guess it`s exactly the perfect timing for everything to be happening this way. if not for cny (considering my dad is so superstitious), i highly doubt the tension would subside so quickly. so yes thank God for it. :)

but the bad news is, i`ve got a horrid eye infection and it`s affecting my vision. i cant really see things clearly. everything i see is a lil blur and it annoys me cos i have trouble reading some stuff. T_T it`s been lidat for a while and i tot it was jus dry eyes, so i din do much about it. until mon when i decided to check with my optician if my degree has increased or sth. my degree for my right eye is about 375. he tried 400, 500 and 600. AND I STILL COULDNT READ THE LETTERS ON THE BOARD. ok that was a bit worrying. so he shone some really bright light and had a look at my eye, and he saw some spots on my cornea. he told me to either let it heal by itself or get some eye drops at the docs. T_T so the next day, i went to the docs to check it out, but cos she din haf the proper equipment to check my eyes, she refered me to an eye specialist immediately. and i thank God she did. i saw the specialist yesterday and it turns out my condition is rather bad. so bad that the damage done to my eye is irreversible. T_T T_T T_T well the cause is wearing contact lens of cos. sighs. the doc told me i cant wear my lens again. EVER. i couldnt believe my ears when he told me that. the infection is cos i`ve been over wearing my contacts - for too long periods, maybe not cleaning it properly as well, i don noe. doc says my eyes aint getting enuff oxygen and it`s really dry. =X but the good thing i guess is that my clear vision can be restored. but becos of the damage done, i cant wear contacts again or i will worsen my eyes. :((( so depressing. as if my face isnt giving my enuff problems alr. T_T

yup, gotta go back for another check up next week to make sure the antibiotic eye drops he gave me works. or i`ll hafta take steriods. sth i`m NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO. so i pray pray pray that my eyes will heal properly. =S alright, it`s late. going to bed. gdnite.