i`m in a horrible mood now. well it`s been so these days. u may leave if u are not ready to hear my rants and complains. i`m about to rant about one zillion gazillion things. mainly about my face. i`ve been getting really HORRIBLE skin lately, and it has became worse. i don know wat the hell happened, but my skin is deteriorating. my acne has become so bad i HATE to look at myself in the mirror. i went to the doctor recently and i got some medication, both orally and to apply on my face. been taking it and it has made the skin on my face soooo freaking dry, it`s not funny. it`s peeling like crazy. ok the doc did mention that initially it`s gonna be lidat. my face will worsen for the first 2-4 weeks, then get better by the 9th-12th week. HELLO freaking 3 months to take effect?? am i suppose to freaking hide at home for 3 months??? and it doesnt help that christmas and new years are coming. i was sooo looking forward to it but now i jus feel like crap.

u don see my face peeling thru the day cos by the time u meet me, there`s enough oil on my face to cover the peeling. how freaking sick is that?! i get very agitated everytime i look in the mirror at my horrible face. i hate my face. why does it hafta go thu such shit. i feel like locking myself at home and not hafta step out so no one has to see me. but i cant cos i`ve got errands to run and things to do. it sucks big time. i don know how the hell my sister managed to get thru that.

and the best part is i may get called up anytime to go down for interviews becos i`ve been sending out countless resumes. i`m sure the employers will be staring at my horrid skin thru the whole interview. he/she must be thinking how damn fugly i look. arghhh. i cant even describe how i feel now.

sometimes i try to use make up to make myself look better by concealing the acne, but i think i make it even worse. and when i don use any make up, i freaking look like i got run over by a bus. SCREAMS. i cant do much about my skin now but wait. i hope time passes faster so i can get over this sickening phase in my life and never have to go thru it again.

and talk about looking for a job. it`s so damn difficult to nowadays. pple think the market is picking up. but i don think so. and job agencies are getting more and more inefficient. i`ve been to one recently and that one really sucks big time. i wont say the name or they`ll sue me if they read this. but seriously, why mus candidates pay them for getting us a job?! usually they get the money from the employer, not us. and cos they haf a gazillion branches all ard sg, everytime someone from a diff branch calls me, i hafta go down and fill in the same stupid form. don they haf a database where they store all their candidates' info?? how damn disorganized is that?? not jus tat, they cant even give me a position each time i go down for a supposed interview with the recruitment consultant. it jus wastes my time going down, cos they`ll tell me the same thing: we`ll call u if we have any available positions.

zzzz annoying shits. so stop asking me if i`ve found a job cos i havent. i hate it when pple keep asking about it and when i say no, they`ll be like oh wat kinda job u looking for, and the convo jus continues. gahhh. i`ll tell u when ive found one, just stop asking and mind ur own business.

i`m off to continue being depressed about my damn face. bye.