it`s cancer again. why won`t it leave us alone?? my uncle has liver cancer. jus diagnosed and he`ll prob go for an op. my sis went for a medical check up tis morning and they found lumps in her breasts. might or might not be cancerous. let`s jus pray tat its not. lik seriously. why. twice in my family alr. not enuff is it. i`m convinced tat i`m gg to get cancer later and suffer and die horribly. it`s damn scary. it`s so bad tat that i might jus pee in my pants if i was diagnosed with cancer. when i see and hear of how my relatives are sick and all, i get really scared. and after seeing how my poor mommy suffered so bad, to tink tat i may hafta go thru it too, it sends chills down my spine. i don tink i`d be able to take all that suffering. i`d rather die. well don worry, i wont take my own life.

sighs. alots been happening at home. my sister is fed up. bro`s not even in most of the time. only last week. my dad. i don even know wat`s up wif him. well no one in the family does. i jus hope i don`t suddenly get a new mother or sth.

life sucks. chun`s away and sophie`s got exams. i`m on my own now.

i hope chun hurry comes back.