i`m so sick of outside food. can someone cook for me pls? or teach me how to cook.. watever la.. i wan to eat home cooked food. im sick of choosing wat to eat from hawker centres. and the food isnt all very healthy. sighs..

yes.. so i`ve been emo-ing again. how sickening. past few days i keep feeling lidat. so sick of feeling tis way. i cant put into words how i exactly feel. my emotions are overwhelming.. crying doesnt really seem to help. not being able to sleep at nite sure helps.. and these recurring nightmares are driving me crazy.. sorry if i`ve been mean to anyone.. jus haven really been myself lately... sighs.. hopefully this goes away sooon....

anyways i din go see xue off this morn. she`s in bangkok for some sch trip ting.. sorri babes.. i din sleep the whole nite. was feeling really crappy tis morn. anyways hope u haf fun over there. see u when u get baq k. love.

i din go for kelly project meeting too. half the members were not going and i was feeling all sick. so i din go. yes so i slept the afternoon away. managed to fall asleep but woke up a few times inbtw. sighs. i can never jus sleep thru... when i wake up i cant go baq to sleep alrady.. T_T guess i`ll go to see a doctor to get sleeping pills. i seriously ned rest. im lik a zombie walking ard everyday la. watever it is.. as long i get sleep, lik at least 8 hours without waking up inbetween, i`ll be good.

anyways i`ll try to go get some sleep now.. hopefully i`ll fall asleep soon. sighs. nite.

...i miss u mommy...